Crossed a line with the good hearted one.
He whom I never looked twice way back when my affection (and life long emotional downfall) was directed towards an aspirational non-relationship [Yet he never payed me any attention *eye roll*
As usual, the only l-feeling I'm capable of experiencing -not love nor lust- was the culprit. [I liked the attention *shrug*
He isn't at his best: vulnerable in several ways. I kinda feel sick with myself. [I hate that I like the attention *sigh*
Repeated patterns that 20 years later I didn't outgrow [I should've payed attention *void*
